But that was before the day ran off the rails.
I had big plans for this day. Some writing, some housework, some exercise, some laundry.
I even made plans to get my day off on the right foot. I went to bed a little earlier than I wanted to. I set my alarm for earlier than I wanted to. And I knew how I would be tackling the day’s list as soon as my feet hit the floor.
I did not plan for my feet to hit the floor at 3:30 a.m.
Or at 4:30 a.m.
I did not expect the “quiet time” I planned for 5:45 a.m. to include a fussy baby. Or for my early bird toddler to ask to play Starfall at 6:10 a.m.
Today I feel inadequate. So very much not enough. So frustrated by a day that refuses to cooperate.
So I took my aggravation to the only One who really gets it, and what did He have to say?
“This is the day that I have made. Rejoice. And be glad in it.”
Why He made a day this messed up is beyond me. (I asked. I think He chuckled. I’m so glad He loves me even when I’m being a smarty pants).
And honestly, I still feel on the edge of a breakdown. I’m tired. The scale didn’t move as much as I had hoped it would. The bills still have to be paid. The laundry will not fold itself. The baby’s going to wake up soon and he’s still going to be cutting four teeth at once.
- My husband thinks I’m doing a great job.
- My kids do, too.
- My coffee tastes just right.
- My sins are forgiven.
- My standing before God is not dependent on how much I do today. It isn’t even dependent on my attitude or my behavior. I’m secure because of what Jesus did for me.
- And, I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
Maybe I can even rejoice until I’m glad.
Has this Monday morning got you down? Take a minute and write down a few things you’re thankful for. A few things that are good and glorious. (You can start with the fact that you are breathing if you’re having a hard time coming up with anything.) And then if you feel like it, share a few things with me in the comments. I’d love to hear about what gives you a reason to rejoice!
I'm looking for three gifts reflecting today...I'll post them when I find them...I know they are out there!