And more importantly, that my Abba remains sovereign over all.
But that doesn't mean I've got a handle on this.
I'm no theologian. I'm a mom. A mom who cried through the news coverage on Friday afternoon and again Friday evening after my precious ones were tucked into their beds.
I'm a mom who Does.Not.Understand.
And unless your faith is about as deep as the icing on the sugar cookies you like to decorate each year, Friday's horror should make you ask questions.
It is not a sign of weak faith to bury your face in your hands and ask God, "Why?"
The Bible tells us in James that, "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him". Besides, God knows we don't understand, and faking it with Him makes about as much sense as going to Wal-mart on Christmas Eve.
That verse, interestingly enough, comes right after James tells us to count it all joy when we suffer. I think God knew we would struggle with this and wanted to make sure we knew we could always ask for help understanding the hard stuff.
Thankfully, there are some incredible, Godly people out there who have shone light into the darkness. They've asked the hard questions and the answers are powerful.
The following is a brief list of some of the posts that have spoken to my heart over the past few days. They range from poignant to theologically profound.
As we celebrate the first coming of our Savior, my heart is longing for the second.
Even so, come quickly.
Deeper with Jesus in Rhode Island ~ Goodbye Little Christmas Angels
The Write Conversation ~ Weekend Worship: Where Was God?
A Holy Experience ~ The Truth About Sandy Hook: Where is God When Bad Things Happen?
Radical ~ The Gospel and Newtown (this one's longer than the others, but there's some serious theology here)
If you've come across a post that spoke to you, feel free to share it in the comments.
Grace and peace,