It’s started already.
Most of my writerly friends
are spending this week enjoying a slice of Carolina heaven known as Ridgecrest
at the Blue Ridge Mountains Christian Writers Conference (BRMCWC). The Facebook
posts about packing and preparing started weeks ago and with them, the little
green monster crept in.
Facebook itself fed the
monster with reminders of years past and the fun, fellowship and worship we enjoyed
together.
Before long, I found myself
posting things like, “Jealous,” or “Wish I could be there” or emoticons with
tears flowing down.
But this morning our pastor
had a message just for me – a message I would have missed if I had been at
BRMCWC.
It wasn’t the key point of
his message, but he made this statement that has echoed in my heart all day:
“Envy is based on a doubt of the goodness of God to you.”
It’s a child receiving a
cookie and wanting to see his sister’s cookie to be sure she didn’t get
something better.
It’s a husband ogling
another man’s wife.
It’s an employee with
bitterness over their co-worker’s success.
Envy tells us no matter how
blessed we are…is there something more? Am I missing out? Is God keeping His
very best for someone else?
Ah! And there we have it –
the root of the very first sin. Doubting the goodness of God.
When Satan tempted Eve in
the garden, this was the lie he used. The lie that tells us that God is
withholding His very best or giving it to someone else. It suggests that God’s
motivation is not in our best interest.
Now for confession time. The
very reason I couldn’t make it to the conference this year is because of God’s
magnificent and overwhelming blessings. Over the past year, God has blessed me
by guiding me to a publisher (Vinspire Publishing) and an agent (Julie Gwinn,
with The Seymour Agency).
By His grace, I signed a
contract not only for the book I had finished writing, but for the second book
I had barely begun.
By His grace, I was able to
finish that second book and meet the deadline.
By His grace, my employer
has allowed me to take time off to work on writing. By His grace, I’ve been
able to meet deadlines at work that seemed impossible.
By His grace, we celebrated
two graduations in a single day – one from graduate school, the first in our
family, and the other from college.
By His grace, both of my
daughters found their forever love, godly men who honor and treasure them. By
this time next month, both will be happily married.
In the midst of all this
joy, sorrow and grief, almost guilt, gripped me as God brought to mind so many
friends who are grieving. Grieving the death of a child. Grieving a child who
has lost their way. Grieving a parent who isn’t there to share special moments.
The disparity between all
these blessings in my life and the grief in the lives of people I love brought
me to tears.
What if you’re watching
others receive blessings while your health is failing, your finances are tapped
out, or someone you love is standing on the threshold of meeting Jesus
face-to-face?
What if you’re sitting on
the sidelines watching your friends’ children graduate, while mourning the loss
of your own?
What if you’re watching your
friends get married and wondering if your Boaz will every show up?
What if you’re working
harder and harder and earning less and less?
Who wouldn’t look longingly
at those around them and wonder, why me, Lord?
Joni Eareckson Tada, who lost
the use of her arms and legs at age 18 in a diving accident, said, “My weakness, that is, my
quadriplegia, is my greatest asset because it forces me into the arms of Christ
every single morning when I get up.”
As Pastor JD Greear
put it, “I would gladly forfeit everything if it means I know God more.”
Do we want more of God
as a means to the end of providing for our needs and wants – or is He the end
we seek? Is knowing Him worth giving up everything else?
“Jesus is better to us
than anything life can give us or that death can take away from us.”
Paul put it this way,
“I consider that our present sufferings
are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” Romans
8:18
Whether your life is filled
with blessings and busy-ness or turmoil and tragedy, choose today to value God
above anything this world has to offer. Resist the enemy who crouches at your
door seeking to devour by filling us with discontent over the life that God has
purposed for us.
Rather than envy my friends
at the conference, I choose to thank God for His blessings, to silence the
voice of doubt that suggests I am missing out, and to enjoy the conference
vicariously through their posts, tweets, and pictures knowing that God gives to
each of us good gifts in perfect season.
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Felicia Bridges |
Felicia Bridges’ nomadic childhood
as an Army BRAT created a passion for missions and travel which energizes her
writing. The International Mission Force Series, featuring teenage missionaries
around the world, begins with CzechMate,
available now. Book two, BoliviaKnight
will release in December 2016.
Her blog,
www.AdventuresThatInspireAction.wordpress.com, focuses on living on mission
wherever life’s adventure leads.
Felicia has a B.A. in
Psychology/Human Resources Development from North Carolina State University.
Her ten years’ experience as an HR Manager provides for interesting stories and
as a Dale Carnegie Course graduate, she is equally comfortable speaking to a
stranger or an auditorium full of people.
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